4/1/26
Today it's snowing. I feel a little sick today, maybe because it's been in the negatives... I got a couple nice noodle bowls and a paella dish for Christmas so I'm making everyone dinner tonight. Udon and Battle Royale with my sweet bf, I got it on dvd yesterday! I also started playing dark souls, I just finished dark souls 2 so I'm trying to get through the series.. I also started on one of my assignments last night. I'm so tired.
I don't want to go back to uni, but I also really want to. I miss class.
7/1/26
YESTERDAY I GOT A CALL BACK. I got a call back to go to the doctors for my hrt OMG YAYAYY i'm so hopeful it goes well... it's feb 17th, shortly before my birthday!!!! I'm still working on my uni stuff and playing dark souls 1, both are kicking my ass..
9/1/26
working my fucking ass off with uni. finished and reviewed dark souls too. ugh
starting cathrine.. i'm going to delete Instagram when my winter break is over!!!! I HATE IT!!!! i feel so insecure, i'm so scared everyday. i want to focus on what i love.
13/1/26
*RIPS MY SHIRT OPEN AND HOWLS AT THE MOON* I AM FREE FROM ALL MY ESSAY DEADLINES. I do really hope I did good, I promise I tried pretty hard. I ended up writing two essays for these assessments:
1) Masculinity in Neo-Noir - Chinatown and Cruising
2) Category III films in Hong Kong and their marketing in the west.
The CATIII essay was so much more important to me, but I felt so stressed working on it. I also got a message today saying that my landlord is still trying to fix my washing machine. This has been broken since like.... probably early October. It's been a really really long time. Ugh.
My dad's also probably going to work up in Scotland for most of the year, pretty cool because I do get really homesick. BUT as much as I love my dad.. I need some space away from him too. It's complicated, I should be happy my one family member will be in the same country for once.. but I also like the distance.
I need to plan out my next game, next movie, etc. I'm pretty bummed I didn't get that webdesign job still. It felt so so perfect. I never heard anything back from that gamestesting job.. I feel hopeless. I wish I had something outside of uni. I love uni, but everything is so dull with out an extra push
13/1/26 continued because I wrote this in the early morning
my JOJOs boxset arrived today, it's pretty cool. that stuff isn't really available in England. I'm thinking of playing Alan Wake... I'm just..waiting around for uni to start at this point.
15/1/26
Yesterday I woke up in so much pain early in the morning. It hurt so bad that once I took my meds and slept again, my meds knocked me out till 1 pm. I just want to listen to Depeche Mode.
16/1/26
not doing anything special. It's the anniversary of David Lynch's death. I miss him. Next week I'm going to see Mulholland Drive in the cinema...