The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer

I finished Laura Palmer's diary today, it was fantastic. Honestly, heartbreaking. I cried so much by the end of it. But really Laura has always made me cry. I didn't think I'd relate to her at all, but some stuff really stuck out to me. Some of the passages really resonated with me, it's so easy to forget Laura is an abused teenage girl. Well, I mean that a lot of people seem to forget that she is. I hated when people constantly mischaracterized her and posted her with Charli XCX. 

Laura haunts me so much. Along side this, I listened to a lot of music when reading. One of Xiu Xiu's covers of the Twin Peaks soundtrack takes an entire diary entry. I went back to the entry and listened to it. It's so haunting. If you like the original soundtrack, Xiu Xiu reworks the soundtrack so beautifully. They then add the song that Leland sings in at the end. It's horrifying and reminds me how scary Twin Peaks truly is. 

                       

The diary starts from the age of 12 to around 16-17, just leading up before the murder. It details how she met Leo, Bobby, and her relationship with Donna. How long she's known of Bob, her inner thoughts, her addiction to cocaine, and her experiences with sex work. I really recommend it, I think I will add it into my routine with Twin Peaks, being: 

I don't play around with Twin Peaks. This isn't the only Twin Peaks book that works itself into the narrative. There's an 'autobiography' of F.B.I Agent Dale Cooper, several Twin Peaks guidebooks (in universe guidebooks I believe), and also Dale Cooper tapes to Diane (WHICH I'D KILL FOR SINCE THEYRE REAL TAPES)

Dream Diary?

I have also been writing my dreams down the last few days. Sometimes I can remember them, so I try to write them down immediately after waking up. I never remember dreams, if I do they're usually nightmares. I guess I'll put them down here from the last 3 days. They don't really make sense, but maybe they are somewhat interesting to read. 

3/8/25 -

My dream was nothing special, I made a new friend, she looked like Riley (my boyfriend) but a girl. We ran around and talked about movies, specifically about 'Sex, Lies, and Videotape'. Before I woke up we went to Home Goods and looked at Halloween decorations and get cards for each other to celebrate our new friendship. 

4/8/25 -

I can't remember this one much, A lot focused on AI, Elden Ring, and hotels. Maybe I am remembering several dreams at once. 

6/8/25-

Everyone wanted something from me, something only for Riley, but Riley wouldn't even take it. 

Everything Else

I haven't been doing much, sometimes I play games, but I've mostly been reading. I've been playing some Dead Space and Doom (2016) which is fun, but I think I'm starting to feel fatigue. I really just want to go back to uni now. I also found out my dad isn't moving back to America, which means I don't lose my healthcare. That's just great. Right when he's supposed to be going I cry and lose sleep over healthcare and never seeing my friends again. So fucked up. But at least I might be okay. It's such a bummer tho, bc I have spent my entire summer applying to jobs. A lot of them. I didn't get a single one. Now its nearing the end and I won't be working long enough to even keep the job so what's the point. With my dad leaving I thought I would work over Christmas, but now I'm not so sure. He's my only family and I'm all he's got. I'd feel bad not going, but I only go for two weeks. BUT I am also not there when people would actually want me to be there. So maybe I'm just fucked. I'm doomed to have no work experience and be broke lol.